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Society’s flawed body wisdom

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Hello Villagers, here is a question I asked myself today after being told “I was pregnant” & when I said no to which someone replied: “Oh, yes, yes you are!” ..Seriously? & here is my long over thought answer.

Question: When did it become socially acceptable to ask another person if they’re “pregnant”?

Short answer: Never

Long answer: Alright Ladies, this is the terrible question we do NOT under any circumstances want to ever be asked in our lives. To be perfectly honest I find it plain rude & devaluing; I won’t lie it was an elderly woman, and I’ve been asked twice now by someone of wisdom if I was pregnant or they have commented casually on my weight, & when I discuss this with someone the answer is usually get is “It’s just because they’re old” well world like it or not I DO NOT agree with that answer.

At what age in time did we tell ourselves it was okay to causally comment on someone’s weight whether they’re too thin or to fat or just too? Because that’s basically what someone is saying when they ask if someone’s pregnant; it translates to “you’re a chunker”.

I have had self-esteem issues my whole life, & let me tell you it takes a lot of time and effort & self-coaching to “Delete” that feeling of self-loathing & body obsession…mine obviously isn’t fully deleted I have some terrible memories drilled into my head I wish I could beam out but I can’t instead I just tell myself to use these memories & become a better version of myself & not let the world weight me down & then some days I feel like the world has dropped a brick through my glass window mind, & I feel 14 again. I just want to pick up the brick and throw it right back! I get so infuriated that society has taught us it’s okay to make each other feel devalued. I used to have days where I said to myself “Why not just take that self-esteem and throw it away? I have none anyways” I am far away from that person now, But it’s easy to let her back in; Especially when I get a curve ball thrown at me like “are you expecting?”

All I can say to make my long answer short is whatever age you are please be aware words do, and always will hurt. Something you say can affect someone’s whole day, even whole life. & yes it’s up to us what we do with what someone says to us, but it can still hurt & stick with us, we are emotional beings. & do yourself a favor, unless you know the person & know they’re trying to conceive do not under any circumstance ask if they’re expecting.

Chapter Teaser

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Hello Villagers,

I got a little sidetracked and ended up starting another chapter because all these idea’s began flowing like rushing current. below is an example of one of my chapters. Again I would enjoy some feedback.

Julia shivered as the crisp air massaged the back of her neck, finding her way to the beach; she kicked off her flip flops and sank her feet into the ice cold water. Holding her breath, her hand’s shivered. She pushed out the air from her lungs, quivering with each release, and began walking deeper into the water. She felt alive for the first time in a long time, she missed the ocean. She and Sean vacationed to The Hampton’s every summer to get away, and be inspired. She was an artist; a painter. The ocean was where something buried inside her came to life. Staring out and down at the water, she was now waist deep. Her limbs numb not noticing the biting temperature of the water anymore. Breathing in, the smell of salt and brine tickled the inside of her nose; she could taste the salt at the tip of her tongue with hints of sea weed. Listening to the low waves pushing onto the beach, she wiggled her toes deep into the sand feeling the grains dancing around her legs.

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NaNoWriMo

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Hello Villagers,

I wanted to announce that I’ve decided to take the challenge of NaNoWriMo
“National Novel Writing Month” Basically it starts in November, and I write a novel in a month!( I encourage all to check it out, its free) writers are allowed to start now, and I need to average at least 1000 or more words a day! isn’t that insane?
Below is a Teaser of my Prologue(which could change, like I said a teaser) its about 488 words, and I have chapter One started that a little over 1000! Honestly I have no title for my book-to-be yet, it will be a surprise, also I would love some feedback on this teaser I posted. Thanks a Million Villagers!

Julia Montgomery has hidden away, in a small town in Connecticut by the name of Britter Cover. Hiding from family and friends telling no one where she has gone; hoping that someday her heart will be mended from her tragic lost love.
Once a strong successful women Julia has now found herself alone filled with grief bartending in this small town and filled with the memory of the last time she held Sean’s hand as he closed his eyes , and his body became lifeless on that hospital bed. Battered and bruised inside and out, Julia was in shock unable to accept she would never see her fiancés face again, feel his touch, or hear his whispers in her ear, so she ran.
She never forgave herself she thought it was her fault, they should have stayed home that night, the rain was too heavy and the roads were too dark. Julia had just received a call from the bank approving her and Sean for a loan for small space her and Sean had their eye on for her art gallery, Sean insisted on taking her out that night to celebrate but It all happened so fast, Sean couldn’t see that deer standing in the middle of the road, the car rolled and everything went silent in slow motion she could hear Sean scream echoing in the darkness, his green eyes lit up reflecting off the review mirror, pupils completely dilated and then it was black.
Waking up confused, in a hospital bed she screamed out for Sean. Looking her left there he was lifeless; eyes closed his chest slowly rising but no other movement. She screamed his name rising from her bed, shaking; stiff and battered she ripped out her IV as doctors and nurses rushed into the room holding her back as she reached out for him, trying to push them away she was too weak, yelling, and sobbing she felt pressure swell to her head, again everything went black.
This time waking up, through her groggy eyes she could see a women, and feel a slight grip on her hands, it was her sister, Emily; sobbing, and preying under her breathe. Julia let out a sigh every muscle on her body ached; her sister sprang to life, calling the doctors in again.
It was all a blur, her sister was still sobbing, the doctors, and nurses where talking to fast, their voices fading in and out. She looked to her left calling for Sean, but all she could see was a blurred lifeless shadow, motionless through the curtain. She looked at her sister feeling dizzy, tears running down her face from her swollen eyes, rippling over her lips like small waterfalls, everything went silent focusing on her sister bleak face she squeezed her hand, leaning in she whispered in her ear “he’s gone, I’m so sorry, he’s gone” … it echoed in the whole room “he’s gone”. Julia couldn’t breathe.

By T.Carrier
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Frenzy Fall

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I’ve posted the photo of myself above, not to be self-indulgent as if to say “look at me” Honestly there’s not much to look at besides the fact I just cut of at least 12 inches of hair! I feel lighter, as if i could float away? No, no, ha; but It’s a change I thought I would share.

Anyways, Fall as always has been beautiful, and inspiring I love sweater weather, but on that topic, I really need some new sweaters! ha ha. I’ve been thinking about writing excessively, but honestly, haven’t been doing any. I would love to share something about my ” book?:” But I can’t, I have not wrote a word to share, and I have misplaces the USB drive I kept my writing on during our move; How frustrating, right? Maybe it’s a sign to start over I wasn’t really sure where I was going with my writings, it just felt like jumbles of word vomit that was spiraling into a wall; villagers have you ever felt that way? what are some tips to get out of that “vomit-funk”?
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I do call this blog, the cat shack, here’s one of my kitty’s, this is mister Sam, can’t you get lost in those golden orange eyes?
I’ve been trying to lose weight and have been doing pilates, and yoga he always loves to join in! I have a long way to go, I injured my Achilles tendon (and I just joined the gym) again, fustrating, so I can do some basic yoga and Pilates and a medium paced walking it okay, but no big cardio that I’ve been hoping for!

Any who, Namaste villagers, and YES it’s thanksgiving weekend here in O’Canada! Happy thanksgiving, I’m thankful for being a part of this beautiful world, my family, my friends, and my love David.

Here is a photo of mine and Mr. Daves Feast! (now you know why he loves me)
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On the road again…

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Hello fellow bloggers,

 I titled this blog on the road again because yet again my love and I are packing up and moving! Still in the same city, but downsizing to a more economical one bedroom! You know to save money, pay off bills and get ahead 1 of the top 10 reasons someone decides to move!

Isn’t it crazy how you honestly never realize how much stuff you have until you start packing, well in my case “ start poking through closets, trying to find things to donate so I don’t have to pack them, then realize I’m  moving in 5 days and have 3 boxes packed”…PANIC!!

You know how hard it is to find boxes? Half the places in the city don’t save boxes and the ones that do you need make sure you call the day before to tell them you’re interested hoping they pass the message along to someone so the boxes don’t get put in the baler…well we got one small load of boxes from 1 of the grocery stores in the city and half of them we can’t use because they’re cut in half or have gaping holes in them, honestly? Needless to say my cats took over those boxes to play with.

I dislike getting so frustrated but the second grocery store we called the night before and told us to be there at 7am… I called just to make sure they had boxes, then they told me no they were all put in the baler because we have to call the night before and request to have them saved… I loudly thought to myself “ISN’T THAT WHAT WE DID!?” then politely said to the lady (I’m sure we were speaking to the night before who said she would leave a note) Oh, we did and where told a note would be left to which she boldly started “well I don’t see no note” …honestly ladies and gentlemen !?

Now were back to square one with boxes, which is okay I’m not too panicked I laugh about it and tell My love ” I got a closest of reusable bags I’ll just use those…(he may kill me) because I’ve done it before…it was awful!

anyhow…

I’m pretty sure moving around frequently is in my blood I’m sure my family and I have lived in over 30 places growing up, and Myself on my own I have live in 9 places going on my 10th, isn’t that just crazy? It’s been a great adventure anyways! Who knows where I will be next year!?

Thanks for reading Villagers…

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The summer of adventure and procrastination

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602727_10151813761435030_1774496730_nHello Beautiful World!

Wow, I Can’t believe it’s been so long since I’ve wrote anything, I haven’t even looked at this blog since June 25th (Sorry) or touched my Ihavenoideawhatimwritingabout novel/short story to be!-I’m such a procrastinator, shame on me! But life has been good; actually it’s been pretty great! A lot of work but still some fun in the sun squeezed in here and there.

I’m interested in knowing what all of you lovely bloggers who still follow are have been doing this summer?  Vacationing in a faraway land? A stay-cation? Trying something new?  Bungee jumping? Maybe exploring the world of food and improving your cooking skills? Jumping out of your comfort zone? I want to hear all about it villagers.

To begin, my vacation started May 30th, a road trip with my better half to the Halifax, Nova Scotia airport…10597_10151687045080030_859895448_n

It was fantastic, we had a beautiful room enjoyed an amazing meal and had a nice dip in the hot tub at Hilton Garden Inn Halifax Airport. The staffs was more than accommodating and they served up one of the best battered fish dishes I’ve tasted, and what a bang for your buck! as you can see below!if you’re ever in the area this is a must stay hotel (just don’t get the nachos) Nova Scotia is not known for their Nachos! 390851_10151687935680030_446834185_n

Then on to the morning, we did a park and fly and they shuttled us over to the airport( very awesome) I don’t know about you but I LOVE FLYING! it’s such a thrill the take off is the bed part, what a powerful feeling, now the landing I could argue, I’m just unlucky that my ears only plug when the planes getting ready to land and they don’t unplug till I don’t know, 2 hours later!? Like come on…But It was amazing nonetheless.223099_10151689554440030_693056997_n
The second part of our vacation began we were on the plane and very anxious to to land in the beautiful St.Johns Newfoundland to visit my loves family whom we haven’t see in about 2 years!  His brother lives in St.Johns we stayed with him and his girlfriend for a few amazing days of  sight seeing and food, let me just say OH-MY-GOD the food; just insane. I was full of excitement, adventure and FOOD the whole vacation.

When I look back on the vacation I feel so blessed to have these beautiful (crazy) people in my life to call MY family and open up there homes to us. I could not thank them enough for the time spent!  and who ever is reading this if you have not been to Newfoundland it is time to pack your bags and GET THERE! just do it. I can not say enough beautiful things about this “Rock”. I even saw a whale at Cape spear and the biggest waves I have ever seen, the whale was a little far away to get any photos but I was super excited, a Tee bit disappointed i didn’t see a puffin or iceberg but that will be another adventure!

We also bused it to Grand-falls/Windsor to visit Dave’s mom. Grand falls in a small town, we just relaxed, enjoyed some good food, and caught up on TV shows (you need to have some relaxing days to not burn out on your vacation) we were sad to leave, but it was nice to get home with all the great memories, vacation always goes by so fast.

My(not-so) baby sister also Graduated this summer from high school, I’m so proud of her. I shed a few tears watching her walk out in her graduation gown and I wish her all the best in her journey; full of life lessons.

While I was home for her graduation, a couple of my girlfriends I haven`t seen in lets just say FOREVER were in town (just the icing on the cake) we met up at the beach for an amazing bonfire, some much needed catching up and girl time; I love them so much.

Well fellow bloggers I`m beat and off to bed Night night, I posted a few photos below ENJOY!

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Chapter 1: HELP!

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182199_10151652807030030_393080854_nWhat an interesting day it has been. I had a set plan to end up in one place, but found myself in another due to a wrong turn. “I’ve been in the city over a year and still get lost.” I guess that’s all the fun.

I’ve been trying to focus on my writing today and it’s true the first chapter is the hardest,  to be honest I can’t figure out where my story is going if I have a chapter started or a prologue. I have all these ideas and can’t settle,however I do have 570 words written, they are flowing like a river and then they just come to a wall because yes I’m writing, but I haven’t thought through fully how I want to develop my characters or plot I keep thinking it will come to me; it will right?

What I really need is some advice, from any authors out there on their journey, any takers?

Thanks for reading bloggers,

Tiffany

Come Back Home – for my sister Tessa.

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SANYO DIGITAL CAMERASeptember12th 2010 was a rough day for most in my family, on this day I received a phone call from my mother asking me if i was sitting down, I could hear it in her voice this was not good news, and some how I new before she said it that he was gone.

My father had passed away at the young age of 45, one day before his birthday. We we’re not talking, haven’t spoke for over 2 months, we had a rough father daughter relationship as did him and my sister. (above is a picture of my father and Sister)

I wish we could have had one last positive conversion, to truly make amends and have closure, but death does not wait for the stubborn, it waits for no one.

However I have had many dreams since then where he’s by my side with my sister and I, honestly just hanging out, when these dreams started I immediately felt a great weight lifted off my shoulders, this was him saying “it’s okay”.

a few months ago, I had a turn in my head and this song is what came out of it.

I hear you crying..
You say there’s nothing I can do.
But my heart is breaking
sitting here holding you.

If I could change time
I’d change it all for you.
I’d fill in the pieces
the ones troubling you/

If I could bring him home
I’d change the roads
I’d make us new paths
You’d both say you’re sorry
and then you’d just laugh..

But I can’t bring him home
I can’t change the roads
or make us new paths
I’ll hold out my hand
hoping someday you’ll laugh.

I hear him crying
He says there’s something I can do.
He tells me his heart is breaking
as he watches over you.
he hands me this letter
and tells me to sing it all to you..

If he could come back home
he’d tell you hes sorry
he’d make stronger paths
he’d hold out his hand
and you both would just laugh
but that’s not how it goes
he knows he can’t come home…

But he gave me this letter
and I’m singing it to you
please always remember he’s watching over you

If he could come back home
He’d tell you he’s sorry
he’d make stronger paths
he’d hold out his hand
and you both would just laugh.
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rip daddy.

Maternal Monday’s

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Good Morning, Bloggers!

Is everybody as enthusiastic, that it’s Monday as I am? (I’m typing this with complete sarcasm and eye-rolls) I thought today would be a superb morning to sleep in before having to fully rejuvenate my brain to get in work mode for 230pm (yes I work late hours!)…However this is not the case 7:20am I’m awake, children in the hallway; laughter, jumping, and screaming! Hey it’s an apartment I’m use to that by now, right? I close my eyes only to have the constant urge to throw off my blanket and do some laundry, HONESTLY BRAIN? At the sound of children you crave laundry, maternal instincts much?

So there I am basket full of clothes taking the elevator to the 2nd floor listening to whispers of the busy apartment building as I pass each floor.

In the laundry room, my first machine of choice eats my change, “FANTASTIC” I think.
Now after all the washing is said and done, and about an hour of waiting for the dryer goes by, I reach into the dryer only to find that my clothes are COMPLETELY damp, Just great! So $4.50 later I’m hanging damp clothes in our spare room! I still think to myself “If this is the worst thing that happens today, I’m In the clear”

On a positive, more productive note, I did focus on my “to be” novel this morning, and got some writing in! Well Bloggers time to hopefully get a nap in!

People Watching

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While, out and about on a beautiful day, my girlfriend and I found ourselves at Starbucks, enjoying some iced tea chatting, people watching, and chatting about people watching at Starbucks. I smell coffee, hear slight chatter, and observe young writers,old writers, students, working away on their novels, essays, maybe even a thesis or two!
This had us chatting about how we use to write. this made me think about a novel I once started a few years ago and did not finished due to my computer being stolen, and the only copy of my writing was on that computer(How bright was I?)…nonetheless,I’ve decided I’m starting a novel this year! I may not finish it this year but it will be an exciting challenge! I already have 147 words…here’s to 147 more!